Friday, January 05, 2007


I remember finding Blue on the road...

Blue was our dog, a beautiful little blue merle Shetland sheepdog that looked just like the one in the picture here. We had bought her from a breeder in Calgary. She had such a sad beginning in life. The breeder had sold her to a man, then months later was driving along a busy Calgary street and saw a bedraggled dog at the side of the road. She picked up the starving pup, and after checking tattoos, realized it was Blue! She called the man, and he was unapologetic..."She was a pain, so I let her out of the car to fend for herself." At the tender age of 11, I couldn't imagine a man being so cruel and evil. We bought Blue and brought her home, the fanciest dog we had ever owned, with papers and a pedigree and everything!

She was so smart! My little sister and I would make up tricks, and we'd only have to show her two or three times, and she'd know the trick forever. We'd point our finger at her, say "Bang!", and she'd fall down dead. We'd say "Slip me some skin" just like Huggy Bear from "Starsky and Hutch", and she'd put up her paw to shake. She was one groovy dog, certainly not a pain in any way! I felt proud that we had rescued her.

One hot, dusty summer day I was out in the garden grazing on the raspberries. After I'd had my fill, I began meandering back to the house, when I saw a kind of heap on the gravel road. I walked a bit closer to investigate, and realized it was Blue--not a good place for her to be napping! "Blue, come on! Get off the road!" The heap of blue-grey fur did not move. As the realization of what I was looking at slowly dawned on me, I froze. "Blue?" I could barely do it, but I walked two steps closer. There was no life there, none at all.

I ran to the house, crying. I told Mom what I had found, and she ran out to investigate. She came back to the house. "Oh, honey" she said, and pulled me into her arms. We cried and cried. I cried not just for the pain of losing such a sweet pet, but at the futility of our attempt to rescue her.

7 comments:

Patrushka said...

I'm glad you're writing again! This is a sad topic, familiar to many of us. Crying is the only way to get through such pain, whether you're a kid or an adult...except for those unfortunate people who have hard hearts. I guess Blue's first owner wouldn't have cried.

Spoke said...

As I navigate the roadways here in the forgotten open prairies, I see many "heaps" along the roads. I often stop...more often than not, and get out to look. I don't look for life so much,I check for death. I poke the heap with my booted toe or a stick and I marvel. Sometime, just a short while ago, God breathed life into this inanimate object, and now, just a short time ago, He has chosen to receive it back.
Death is the part of the journey we all have in common and shall probably taste.
Animal and vegetable.

Wow, I ended with a meal sort of...

Pondering Pig said...

One thing about Blue, though - he's fully alive in your heart. What a great dog he must have been.

Kim said...

Those kinds of things, the death of a pet...I always thought it would get easier when we got older, but it never has, it's always difficult...
I understand that feeling of futility....hand feeding this abandoned kitten every 8 hours for weeks...watching her grow up...my little honey, and learn to walk instead of creep on the floor towards my voice, then finding her lying very still in her cardboard box, her body had outgrown her hearts ability to nourish it....wow, still have tears from that one....my poor sweet honey...gave her maybe 3 weeks of life and she died even then.

Anonymous said...

labels: childhood, death, depression, dogs, grief, Mom

I like how you have labels for each blog. Now how did you do that?

How sad! We have a pet death story too, but not so innocent. Maybe I will post it soon... I have lots of free time...

Anonymous said...

btw, that was me b4 (Jodi)

Lauren S. said...

What an interesting blog you have! I just found you via Papa Herman, via somewhere else. Sorry about your dog. My dog's name is Blue. But he's a silly old mutt. Anyhow, nice to visit you.